Tannyer

Morbid cowl the brain into ties of depression
unlock the sorrow to numb notes
footed notes of post it thoughts
mixed emotions for one simple thought
or so one can only conclude.
amaphest shades of tears lingering behind lids
closed, locked, betrayed by life presented
displeased, content, unsatisfied
is there another word to throw around off this liqured tongue?
tongues of lost pleasure, lost memories
dose of complection to this depressing conception
morbid melodies of ice in winters time
locked away, in this icy mind
so much to say, yet so many boundaries remain
could one find that spot of sun in a storm of rain
can one look up and find stars at night with no hope of clouds clearing
grass so plush
air, crisp
laid down to breath, to smell the fresh spring air..
could one possibily leave this endless, memorie infested prison?

Someone once asked me if I believed in things beyond what I can see. I looked at this man and actually though to myself, "could this all be hypothetical..could it just be what we interoperate it to be?" Honestly think, if a tree were to fall in a forest, would it actually have fallen if no one was there to see or hear it happen? Take the world into your brain for a moment, everyone sees the world differently. Wether this be good or bad interpretations its still their own.To one person the world could only exist how they see it. Nothing beyond what they see exists, where as another person could believe in what they see, and everything else there ever could be. Who is to disclaim dragons and magical creatures existing? Who is to say the dream world is not as real as the hear and now? There is so many ways to look at the world and your surroundings. I find It fascinating how everyone sees it differently. The beauty within this world is beyond explainable, yet people insists on destroying it for synthetic needs. Yet with all the beauty in the world there is so many sinister and morbid acts presented in front of you. Wars, Death, recessions, depressions, world disasters. There is so many things surrounding us that are so bad no wonder some people choose to ignore it. Yet, if these problems are in front of them what do they have to turn to?  Some problems people have to face are so horrid and unbearable that even i can not believe the negativity to them. There are many things blinding and opening peoples eyes to this world. Yet for me I see it as one huge place where people are trying to constantly find their identity and striving so hard to live a better life. When there is so much negativity can one actually find a positive outcome? It could be down, as hard as it will be...it can be done with time. Time changes everything.

 My Art Teacher once told me, " There are three things we don't talk about in public. Sex,Religion and Politics." My first reaction to this was to laugh. Honestly, why is it that people react so strongly to those three subjects? They are just subjects and actions in human nature. Sex is understandable, unless your one of those people who flaunt your latest "boy/girl toy" action, its not something you need to talk about around other people. Its a personal choice to share that part. Religion on the other hand, is just over rated in our society. Religion is based off of lies or myths people have passed down. Take christianity for example, its all bassed off of a book, that was written 200 years after their "son of god" died. So much has been altered during that time. Sure, jesus might have been a man, but lets face the facts. Did he actually walk on water? Did he actually HEAL these people? Something that happened so long ago, why do people beleive in this? This religion thing is all about controlling people and having that sense of power over people. People believe what they wish, they worship what they wish. Without religion most people would have no hope or faith, they would litteraly just be walking corps. So in a sick twisted way religion keeps our society in a sense of order..But for wrong reasons. I beleive We make our own dessesions and choose our own lives. No god is controlling this, nor does he have a plan for you. Try preaching that to a hobo on the these streets in toronto. If you told him god had a plan for him, he would laugh at you and most likely curl back into his box. There is no faith for those people, they have seen the world at the worst. where is your god then? Can you actually say this god is all good and all knowing? If he is...why does he let all this morbid, sinister work go on?
Everyone is intitled to their own beleifes and thoughts, im not saying to stop beleving in what you do. I just dont see a point in religion. 
Same with politics, its all about controll and being worshiped by the people. In its own way politics is its own religion. And that right there for me, turns me away from politics completely. 
just live your life, don't let things like those three topics controll and rule your life. There is to much in this world to base your life on and not off these pathetic things.

To define power is to aknowledge strength. Strength is the foreground of most ruling societies. Walking down the streets of this occupied city, people scurry about trying to portray and imiagery of Strength, and self controll. They try to hide behind faces of power to try and serve a point to a pointless surounding. What is the purpus in trying to set such a strong imagry on a society rueled and governed by Mediea and useless coruption. The media sets everything in our society, just look around you right now, i bet you can find at least one thing influenced by the media. Walking down the halls of your highschool, you see clicks of teenagers all formed by some sterio type. The way we dress, Speak, act ,everything, its all infulenced by the media. This type of clothing is in, so is this celebraty, so of course your gonna fantasize the celebraty and with that the follower will dress like them, Starting a "trend". Honestly its sad when we let a form of Media controll our society, our emotions we choose to portary and out social status. Wheres the purpus of a self being if all people do is run after the latest trends and lingo.  Why is our society trying so hard to conform? Why do people feel the need to be like someone else to fit in? My personal opinion, people are scared to be themselves, there for they try to set images for themselves by choosing a trend to follow. People try to hide behind strength, but strengh can only be obtained if you, your self understand the world around you and who you really are.

"If there were a theory to everything, wouldn't  it predict all human action and behavior?" This does contradict the option of free will, but in the same way it is completely the opposite. You choose your actions, without knowing a theory to your own life. But say you come up with a theory to your life and predicted every action you happened to make, does this now defile free will? Not really, no. You just had a prediction, a theory is not a final conclusion. Just merely an outline to something your about to create. Things can change at last minute, nothing is definite when it comes to living what you choose. people change, so does their minds and decisions there fore making nothing definite.I thought for the longest time, that everything is set and that if you figure out the right assumption and put it to the test you could figure out meaning and belonging. I was proven very very wrong, for my life changed paths within the blink of an eye. If you yourself is not changing at the current moment, the world and people around you is. You can not predict how they are changing nor the outcome, you can make a theory to it yes... but not a conclusion. My advice, don't settle in to a scenario to comfortably, because before you know it, it can change. For the better, or worse, this you can only predict as well... When you sleep, Your aging, dreaming and picturing happy or sinister thoughts. when your awake, your living a dream. A vivid image that seems to take many tolls, the only thing we can trust in when it comes to living life, is time. Time is the main thing that change manifests off of. With out time change could never happen, we would never live, we would never even exists. We run off time, so does everything around us. So getting back to the main point, If your going to ask me the Theory of life, don't bother because i don't think there is any. We are the Theory.

Lost thoughts, slipping off the tip of your mind. Could one possibly depart of such thoughts? Such pain and sunken sorrow? Could one Measure Happiness to sorrow, and come to a conclusion of ether grief or joy being greater?  Your probably thinking, " Absolutely! You can always tell which effects you more!"  ...This can be true..although when it comes down to being stuck in one of these emotions, you are blinded, assuming you feel the one more than the other. When you end up like me, stuck in such a dark hole you don't even know what is real or not, what do you assume? Do you assume their is hope when you can't see it? Do you assume there is and end, when you can not even see that? Why does the End define the solution to something when that solution is not on equal par to both sides? Such pain is brought on by an impact of unfairness and an assumption to the person who sees an end. Yet the question is not solved, why is it that everyone sees the end as a solution? One may be happy and feeling a hint of freedom where the other is stuck in an abyss of such darkness and morbid melodies. I really would just like to know, why i hate this part so much. The part of healing and trying to forget everything that was once the greatest thing in your life. Why must i forget and push aside the best thing that happened to me? Why must i be stuck with this torture of such heartache. But for now, we should just go by Billie Holiday and her lyrics " Good Morning Heartache, Whats new?"